Whats Real..

I use to say to myself just smile so no1 can see your pain and I smiled until i became numb to the pain, I put my guard up and knew that nothing or no1 will ever hurt me again. I started to show no emotion and I learned that people that have nothing and no1 show no emotion so I chose to take my guard down and just take control of my life.

The year 2010 has definitely taking a big giant change in my life. I've had so many ups n downs this year that I feel like I've been through it all already. But really I haven't im still learning and growing. Some people say Im so nice and some people think Im a bitch but both of those people are wrong about me, because the people that truly know me will tell you im REAL. A lot of people around my age call them selves trying to find them self (smh) to me that's funny because I would ask those people how and when did they lose their self. I on the other hand am CREATING myself for a better future. You are who you are and you should never get any dumber. To me people who never make mistakes are not smart at all because if you don't make mistakes you never learn anything. No 1 is perfect, even the richest person in the world could be unhappy. I started to think about how people are and wondered if there is always going to be something missing from perfection just to keep us all balanced.